Five years ago, I had an affair for the first time in my life. I learned that my husband, who was supposed to be serious, was having an affair, and my husband and I were in a difficult situation. I forgot the guilt that weighed heavily on my chest every time I was wanted as a woman by a younger child, and each time I was abused so many times. If it was just once... I would have beaten my husband, but the feeling of missing him grew stronger day by day.